Today marked a personal milestone worthy of celebration, and yet I didn’t quite feel like celebrating.
On Feb 4th 2020, my debut novel (THE SPIRIT PROJECTOR) became available for purchase in print version. While online book retailers list the book’s publication date as Dec 2019, it wasn’t actually released until Feb 4th. Thus, I consider 2/4/20 as my book’s birthday!
Last year I went big in celebration – ran a book giveaway and had a social media live event. Friends and family joined in on the fun, cheering me on.
My self-published debut floundered in sales and excitement, leading me to doubt my passion. That doubt hit me like a wall of bricks today, and the rain that slid down the sunroom windows mirrored the tears that just wouldn’t flow.
I do not write the above as a desire for sympathy or call to help boost my ego. I write to heal; it’s cathartic act bringing clarity.
I am a writer who’s not always confident in her skill/talent/ability. Most days I am, but not this day. I started the Love Write Now Pledge to push myself out of this creative rut so even though my inspiration lacked today, I refused to give up the pledge so quickly.
I have much of which to be proud; I wrote and published a novel, for goodness sake’s! For all of you out there who may be doubting yourself or your passions, don’t give up. Pick up that pen, paintbrush, microphone, or chef’s hat and keep creating your art. You are worth it!!
Kelly Deeny 