Perfection: My roadblock

I’ve never thought of myself as a perfectionist.  I procrastinated, second guessed and doubted throughout most of my high school and college career.

Was I writing about the right topic? Was I getting my point across? Will the professor like it?”

All these worries worked on my self-esteem until I ended up putting off the finished work until the night before.  Sometimes, most-times, I worked well under pressure and created a cohesive and passionate piece of writing.  In other instances the finished work reflected my lack of care in the project I was working on.

In that respect I’ve realized that when it comes to my writing I am a perfectionist.  I want my work to match the level of importance, value and passion that I have inside to give it.  I create so much expectation before my pen even hits the paper that I overwhelm myself with all the possibilities for failure.

I have so much invested in my novel that the very idea of creating a finished piece that’s less than stellar is unfathomable.  I believe in this story.  I want to see it thrive.  But while I work diligently to perfect each chapter, each word and each transition it’s one more day not in the hands of readers.

Published by Kelly Deeny

I am a writer, singer, jewelry designer, and theatre enthusiast. I use various forms of artistic expression for personal reflection, community discussion and creative inspiration. My premiere novel encapsulates all of the above. Follow along on my journey towards an artistic career!

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